When nature calls.

So, I'm the lone ranger on bedtime routine tonight for O. I get her undressed to nudybooty and take her into the bathroom to start the bathtub filling with water. I let go of her for one stinkin second and she takes off . . . those sausage like thighs are going too fast for me. . . she makes it to the front door which is open and the security door is keeping her inside. She loves to stand there and just watch the dog, usually she has clothes on though. It is so true what they say about running water helping you to go peepee. . . I came out to get her and sure as sh*& she was peeing with a huge grin on her face. I literally laughed out loud and let her finish. Oh the simple joys!


I have no oomph today. I was grateful by the end of my work day to have been busy with wonderful clients . . . so busy that I didn't even get to eat my delicious salad for lunch. I truly don't know how single moms or full time working outsidethehouse moms do it. I love my job when I am there - I love my clients and co-workers, also grateful to get to wear lipstick at least a few times a week. I don't wear it when I'm not at work because I'm usually giving kisses to my DH or O. When I am not at work I don't like to think about it because I enjoy being a stay at home mom A LOT.


Feeling a little desirous today (take your dirty mind right out of that gutter) . . . desirous of some things for me as a person/woman/creature. I desire to be less self critical, less fearful, less concerned with too many details, less inside the box on a number of things, and less afraid of my own potential. Just some thoughts as I drove home from work. I only have a 3 minute drive home from work but a very busy mind, obviously right?!


I desire to feel more healthy - I shouldn't eat popcorn but I do dangit! My name is Paula and I'm a popcornaholic. Thanks Dad (no bitterness here). It was a typical snack while growing up that is now ingrained in 2/4 of us kids. O absolutely goes nuts for it too. Someday maybe I'll be better at making those kinds of choices - to take better care of my self because it's the right thing to do. I miss my naturopathic doctor, may he rest in peace.


Have some things coming up, some are being looked forward to (a weekend trip with my DH and O, future ventures, new clients) some are not (visit to dr. for a follow up test, trying to keep the anxiety at bay, mapping out an actual budget for our family, trying to stop eating delicious and salty popcorn). Oh well. For today, in this moment I am good and incredibly blessed. That is all I have really - this moment.


O Lord, take these lemons in/of my life and transform them/me (gently please?) in to what they/I are/am meant to be - help me be the playdough to your crafting hand.